Insomnia
Sometimes, sleep is hard to catch ;-)
You try and you try, but it keeps on making close escapes. You drift away into a shortlived dream like state, where your thoughts become a story of their own and suddenly, a thought pops up that brings you right back to the real world.
I see my dog fighting sleep, her eyelids dancing a dance to stay open, revealing themselves in the dark with the eyelashes black against a white background. Her ears stay awake though, I don’t sleep, she doesn’t sleep. I know she can completely relax when I’m there, but what does she do while I’m sleeping or away? Does she ever completely loose her guard?
I remember her as a puppy, her cuteness, her oddness, my determenation to find her a good home. Am I really the best master I could find? Was I just being selfish in the choices I made? Is she ever truelly happy and relaxed because of me? Or is it in spite of me?
I hear the neighbours washing machine, the sound appears to be in my head, no ammount of pillows on top of my head seems to block the spincicle that has been going on for hours now. Honestly, who runs a two hour washing cicle at this hour of the night?
I’ll be a wreck tomorrow.
Thoughts keep piling up, yet there appears to be no time to think about one thing in particular, to finish one thought…
My eyes are tired, they feel dry and it hurts to keep them open, however, closing them doesn’t help. I’ll try to find something to do now, just lying here doesn’t help either…
Must have early night tomorrow…