If…
If I turn away from it all hard enough, will it all go away?
If I wasn’t such a screw up at stuff that I really make an effort at, what would that change?
If I could live up to the expectations people have of me, would I feel better about myself?
If I knew how to start making an effort towards all the things I want to accomplish, where would my limits lie?
If people wouldn’t have measured me with so many double standards today, how would my day have been?
If people get to be mad about something, why don’t I get to be mad about the exact same things?
If I could actually say everything that is in my head, could that ever make a difference?
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Is it that you are bad in doing things and make many mistakes, or is it that you need to learn how to deal with bad things and stuff not working out the way you want them to be?
Things aren’t always what they seem to be.
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Today, it felt like the former.
I guess it’s the latter, but today was just a bit too much of everything.
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Sounds like you’re suffering from a great deal of fear, uncertainty and doubt… try to see what it is what you fear and live with it: it is not necessarily to fight it…. things you’re not certain about, get them cleared. then there will be lesser fuel to your doubt.
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I usually prefer the unknown in those cases. Thanks for listening though :-)
Where would I be without you some times…
Nighty night my little snow flake (and flaky you are at times)
I really want to go to Saas Feest again… Just get my mind off of things… No holidays for me though ;-)
I’ll settle for a BBQ sometime next month ;-)
The-country-of-far-far-away sounds good :-)