I wanna be…
I wanna be… A vet.
I always wanted to be a vet. This article says it all.
The thing is, me and school never got on to well together. There is something in the way they try to “teach” you, and the forced feeling it always got me, that just didn’t cut it for me.
I wonder if I can ever bring up the motivation, stamina and self restrictions to go back to school, part-time, next to my job, even for just one course a year. I could. I could do home studies. I could get to where I absolutely need to be in… ten years or so… Just to be able to apply for the study. Then, I would still need to beat the odds.
Oh, and did I mention I own a house yet? (Slightly complicating matters further)
I absolutely love my current job. I love the work “they” make me do. I love to be able to use my brains (and yes, I do have some), I love to be able to work on problems, to challenge myself on a daily basis. I yearn for knowledge. I lust for the learning process that acompanies my every move. It doesn’t matter if that’s in company politics, how to handle, deal with and train people, or (my favorite) just the job itself.
I doubt I will ever get bored with this job, systems administration. On the other hand, I also (and even more strongly) doubt that I can forsee the future. Maybe, in a year or so, if I manage to pull my private, social and mental life together a bit more, I will just do it, can’t hurt to learn, even though chemistry, physics, biology and math might not be that related to my current job (even though the math comes close).
At least, if I do get bored with the job, I can go back to school (actually, would be college by then) I can go and study.
I think I need to write a 10 year plan and a 20 year plan too.
This is what I always wanted, yet I never made any effort to do anything to actually get there.
I wanna be… Everything I always dreamed of…
I wanna be… The best I can be…
I wanna be… Someone to look back at their life aged 90 and who can think… “I lived up to my full potential, always doing exactly that what I wanted to do most, or what I needed to do to get there”