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I wrote “Basically, I’ve been waiting for my happy end for too long. I was watching a couple of romcoms yesterday with Addison^Wa friend and I realised that there is no happy end. Not yet anyway.
I will just live my life as if it’s a comedy from now on. A movie, catchy dialogues, hilarious adventures, and an actual story line that goes somewhere.“

Yesterday morning, in a plane, I read the following lines from Tom Holt’s book Open Sesame that reminded me of that. (And had me chuckling in the plane, even though it really is pretty sad, the bit about rocking-horse shit got to me)
“Many years ago, she’d met a man who’d been captured by the Japanese during the last war. He’d survived Changi Gaol and the forced labour camps of the Burma railway, escaped, and tracked his way back through jungle, mountain and desert, until eventually, he walked down a gangplank at Liverpool with his kitbag over his shoulder, took a train to London, and went home. But when he got there, he found that his house, his street, the entire neighbourhood had completely vanished, turned into a wilderness of bricks and rubble by a flying bomb in one of the last V2 raids of the war. And that, he said, was what really got to him. He’d made the mistake, he later realised, of believing in the existence of happiness ever after, when he should have known that happy endings, like free lunches and rocking-horse shit, are not in fact as common as the fairy-tales would have you believe.”
It’s funny how this book ends though, instead of a happy ending, or your default “The End”, it has “Cue future lives.” as the last sentence.

I never thought of it very much, but every day can be a happy end, you just have to make it have a happy ending. Happiness ever after doesn’t exist, it’s just a way to describe how making every day happy feels like in the end.

I think I found my cue, one future life coming up. Luckily, I now realise that my life can be anything I want to be. I just still want it to be a comedy :-)