We have a saying…
We have a saying in Dutch, “Jantje lacht, Jantje huilt”. It basically says that a person is bipolar ;-) No, honestly, it says that someone switches between being (very) happy and (very) sad easily and fast.
I’ve been feeling like that lately. I’m trying very hard to think positive, and not to be to down about hardly being able to make my own breakfast, but it’s really hard.
I’m a bit of a pessimist, always have been, I just never knew that untill I watched The Secret last weekend.
I’m trying really hard to visualise myself the way I want to be, but that’s really hard to keep up right now, specially with more and more signs pointing towards me having a herniated disk. Tonight brought a litte (yet much needed) sparcle though :-)
I’m expecting a delivery next week, an early birthday present, but I already know that one of the presents is a vi Reference Mug, it will be *soooo* hard not to open that box for another three weeks ;-)
Besides that, I decided that I’m going to Miami for New Year’s, catch a lot of sun, maybe get some dving in (defenately a lot of snorkling though), maybe visit some themeparks… I’m cheerful again, I have something to *really* look forward to, it’s not something I would normally do, but I can see myself partying in tiny dresses in Miami all right :-)
(Helps a lot with the visualisation)
For now, I’ll just see myself partying in the city where the heat is on :-) Might break up the dreary winters here that drag on and on, without any actual snow or freezing or anything :-) (See the amount of smileys used and you will know I’m really, really fucking cheerful!)
Oh, and to make me even more cheerful:
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The Secret? Ah please please please please tell me you mentioned watching that film as a comic relief? You watched it and went “haha! the universe doesn’t have a conscious mind, watching my every move and feeling, that would be just as silly as the christian god!” right? Right? *gets on knees and enforces his pleas with positive vibes*, pretty please? :P
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Actually, no, I don’t believe the universe has a mind of it’s own, no, but if that is the message you got out of the movie, I suggest you watch it again.
The message I got from it was, that in order to feel good, you have to think positive (so far that makes sense right?) and in order to get what you want, you have to believe you’re able to do it and make a (sub)conscious effort to get it, meaning that you have to really want it and believe that you can get it in my eyes. Now you can tell me that that’s bull, but so far, it appears to be fairly logical to me.
Of course you’re more than welcome to burn your ships and try to find whatever it is you’re looking for by yourself in some far away country, instead of going for what you want. But don’t get upset if someone else walks away with what you wanted, not even if it really doesn’t matter half as much to them as it does to you.