Faragon's blog

We have a saying in Dutch, “Jantje lacht, Jantje huilt”. It basically says that a person is bipolar ;-) No, honestly, it says that someone switches between being (very) happy and (very) sad easily and fast. I’ve been feeling like that lately. I’m trying very hard to think positive, and not to be to down [...]

faragon@coffee$ smoketimer Three weeks, 4 hours, 43 minutes, 8 seconds. 317 cigarettess not smoked, saving EUR 66.89. Life saved: One day, 7 hours, 42 minutes. This time it isn’t so much an attempt though, it’s more like a total lack of seeing any reasons to keep on smokeing, or to pick the habbit up again. [...]

Can people really change? And what triggers that change? I’ll admit, this one was for medical reasons, but it’s easier this way, easier than when I last tried, because I thought it was the right thing to do… What *is* she going on about I can hear you think… Well… faragon@coffee$ smoketimer 4 Days, 22 [...]

Meredith has decided to get out of this equation :-) Strangely enough, I feel good about that. It hurts like hell to loose a close friend, and I know that that will only get worse, but at least I am no longer hung up on someone who just ends up not having time for me. [...]

Sinse last Friday, I’m on sleep medication. I guess most of you know about my insomnia, but the weirdest thing is happening to me. After taking these pills for *calculate* only four days, I’m tired at 10 PM. This is a first. I hadn’t slept a proper night in over a month, and now it’s [...]

I wrote “Basically, I’ve been waiting for my happy end for too long. I was watching a couple of romcoms yesterday with Addison^Wa friend and I realised that there is no happy end. Not yet anyway. I will just live my life as if it’s a comedy from now on. A movie, catchy dialogues, hilarious [...]

“Ignorance more frequently begets confidence than does knowledge.“   - Charles Darwin I know I’m insecure, insecure about my abilities, insecure about my appearance, insecure about basically everything. I know I’m being stupid about all of that in a way. People keep telling me I’m great at just about anything I do, I look awesome (if [...]

So… I decided my life was to become a comedy, it’s working already :-) Even though the day didn’t start as planned (does it ever in a comedy?), it turned out just fine. It all began while I was trying to get out the door to go to my grandma, who lives in Heilloo. (Try [...]

It’s funny how reading old blog entries can make you realize so much about yourself… Varying from “fuck, I really *can* write, if I put myself to it” to “fuck, I really don’t learn anything from all the revelations I have had in the last year” 2007 will be better though, I’m going to make [...]

Can’t sleep, got beeped out of bed for a self solving routing issue. Lying awake, I have come to some realisations. Lately, my life has been like a soap opera. Grey’s Anatomy pretty much says it all. Actually, that doesn’t come close, as Meredith and Addison aren’t friends in the series. Truth be told, it’s [...]